This month is a hard month. This month marks something that I have been surrounded by most of my Damn life. Breast Cancer. Mom was first Diagnosed with Breast Cancer two days after I was born. Of course I don't remember all that happened than, the first I can remember, was when I was about 9. I remember Mommy not being around very much, and being in the hospital, and spending a lot of time with my father, sadly the only reason I remember because that is when the abuse kicked in full force. It was a terrible time of the year for me and part of my life. I wanted so badly to escape, and all I could remember was that I just wanted my mommy to come home and take care of me again.
This month is breast cancer awareness month. I support finding a cure because I really hope that there will eventually be a cure. So it prevents someone from having to go through what I have gone through. Losing a parent to this disease, to having gone through it myself. I was lucky that I caught it extremely early and didn't have to go through the chemo or the radiation thank god, because I don't think I could handle going through that, I don't feel strong enough to go through that.
This is a hard time right now too, because I was in a car accident a couple of nights ago. I have been having really bad nightmares since that night, I was in a car accident a couple of years ago, and woke up to my worst nightmare. I lost my daughter in the last accident I was in, this just triggered so many bad memories. I have been trying to sleep, but it has been hard.
Well I guess that is it for now. I haven't written in a long time, so I thought I should at least write one journal.
Thanks for reading.
