So on the 13th I got the call that I was so scared to ever get...I was told that I had breast cancer from my doctor. Today I was talking to an old friend. We have known each other for a few years now, I have been there for her, through so much, and she has been there for everything that life has thrown my way... She told me to go to youtube and listen to the song "I'm gonna Love you through it" by Martina McBride. I had herd the song before, but I took the time to actually listen to the song, and it hit me, it hit me really fucking hard... Now all I can do is sit here, and cry...I don't know what to do. I wish so much my mom was here. I need her so bad right now... I saw 1st hand, what making the choice to fight the cancer can do to a family, do to the people that you Love, and honestly, it was not a good thing, I just can't help but wonder, if it would just be easier to do nothing, to just not fight it. I mean, I don't know what to do. I am so scared, and I feel SO fucking alone right now...
~Cries~
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