As most know, I lost my daughter at the age of four months old to a drunk driver. We were on our way home from wal-mart, and hit less than a mile from our house. She was killed instantly.
Well last night I had one of the worst night mares I have had in such a Long time....I had the dream that we were in the accident, but this time she didn't die instantly, she was injured really bad and was in a medically induced coma.
People from all around my town who I had known were coming to see me and her, and giving us prayers, and shit like that, and my mom was still alive and was staying with me the entire time. Doctors kept telling me and mom that my daughter was never going to recover, and that the best thing for everyone was to turn off the machines. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. No matter what everyone was saying, and what everyone was telling me, I could not do it.
I woke up screaming and my brother trying to wake me up, it was so scary and for a second I totally forgot that i had lost my daughter. Than it hit me, and I just laid back down in bed, and cried myself back to sleep.
It was one of the worse nightmares I have had in such a long time. I'm so depressed today. I miss her so much, and its so hard.
I want to hug you so badly, and I don't even know you.
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